Mad Girl’s Love Song ~ Sylvia Plath

I created this spokenword video back in 2016… I was looking for a poem very different from my own writing.  I found a spoken word poem on a You Tube page by the Radio Theartre Group, the poem was Sylvia Plath’s ‘Lady Lazarus‘ read by Natalie Clark.  I had previously read Sylvia Plath’s poetry but didn’t find I fully related to her subjects.  But it’s amazing how after hearing a poem spoken extremely well with great emphasis, the kind of feeling and emotion Natalie Clark so expertly conveys in her reading, it completely changed my perception of Sylvia Plath and her poetry.  Perhaps hearing a human voice speaking the words is what makes the connection and turns what can be a cold poem into warm reality? 

I reread some of Sylvia’s poems, they began to speak to me in a much more vivid way.  Mad Girl’s Love Song stood out as a poem I might want to try reading, partly because of it’s popularity but also the poem intrigued me as to what it was about.  On the surface it appears to be about a failed relationship, a disappointment in a lover, at least that is what is generally assumed for the poem.  As I began to read it out loud for the recording I felt a little confused at what I was reading… phrases such as ‘God topples from the sky, hell’s fires fade:
Exit seraphim and Satan’s men‘.  I was literally trying to work out how those strong, slightly biblical statements had anything to do with disappointment in a lover. 

Something in the back of my mind didn’t feel right… I felt foolish reading a poem I was not entirely convinced of it’s true meaning.  I’ve never done that before.  I like to fully understand a poem so I can read it with the right emphasis.  I carried on reading,  ignoring the little voice telling me “you can’t read that, you don’t even know what it’s about!”🙄 

After reading it at least six times, it suddenly dawned on me what it could be about.  Maybe it was not about a human lover bitterly disappointing, but coming to a point in life where the belief in God no longer feels real.

God topples from the sky, hell’s fires fade:
Exit seraphim and Satan’s men
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I fancied you’d return the way you said,
But I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

Don’t worry… I’m not about go into any lengthy religious explanations, get into whether God is real or not, or suggest my theory on the meaning of the poem is 100% correct.  But just point out some interesting facts I discovered about Sylvia Plath that may make a bit more sense of my theory. 

After the mind blowing poetry reading experience, I searched online for a poetry analysis for ‘Mad Girl’s Love Song’.  I found the same kind of unconvincing explanation over and over… it was about Sylvia Plath’s disappointment in her marriage, or maybe an earlier relationship.  When I delved deeper to when the poem was published, I found she didn’t write it as late as I thought.  She wrote the poem in 1951, age 24, while attending Smith College.  It was first published in 1953 in a magazine called Mademoiselle.  She didn’t marry the poet Ted Hughes until 1956.  So the poem couldn’t possibly be about disappointment in her marriage.  It’s also interesting to note, at 8 years old Sylvia’s father unexpectedly died due to complications after surgery.  She experienced a loss of faith after her father’s death and remained ambivalent about religion throughout her life. (Quote from Wikipedia).

I can’t prove my theory is correct, but there is one thing I do know for sure… after waking up, seeing a deeper meaning, I was able to read the poem in a different way.  For a few minutes I felt that state of mind, the cold disappointed honesty in admitting something wholeheartedly believed might not to be true… they didn’t show up, and never would because it was just a comforting invention of the mind, a way of coping, and nothing more.

If you find the subject of interest and you want do some of your own research, you might find this analysis of the poem worth reading. I thought it was excellent, and had some slightly similar suggestions close to my own feelings on the meaning of Mad Girls Love Song.

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The next post will be my own poetry… just in case it looks like I’ve given up writing my own material.  No, not at all, I’ve just been busy with photography and… well, life! 😊

Legacy

WORDS IN THE LIGHT

You were ready to walk
through the Night with me
but you died on a Winter day
and left me Spring as a legacy.

Flowers and words in blue,
words and flowers from you:
now what is yours is mine
and what is mine is yours.

Mummy,
Love is not missing.
Thank you for
the Blessing.

© Frédéric Georges Martin

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Blue ~ Poetry Video

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Captur-00Recently I was asked by a writer friend on WattPad (also Mia Lotus on You Tube) if I’d like to be one of the poets for a charitable project website of hers (Songs For The Sea) to encourage and inspire us all to care more about the ocean. I wrote two ocean related poems and also decided to create a poetry video.  My lovely artist friend Karen Gadient created some beautiful ‘blue’ abstract art to go with the poem

Most of my videos on my You Tube page that are not my own film are free creative commons footage, but on this occasion I decided to purchase some pieces of short film from Shutterstock.  They have an amazing collection of film footage on Shutterstock, but it’s probably not something I’ll be spending much money on with future videos as it’s quite costly.

The point of my poetry video is to show how misguided it is to spend so much time and money on space projects in the hope of finding life when there is an abundance of life in the ocean, some of which has barely been explored. 

The ocean is a world within our world and is so crucial to the functioning of the planet we live on.  Space on the other hand, fascinating it may be, but I don’t feel it’s as relevant as the sea or important enough to be spending vast sums of public money in exploration that doesn’t appear to result in much at all. The sea these days seems to be turning into a convenient dumping ground – that’s just so wrong.  I wonder if another habitable planet was ever found, humans would just go and dump their garbage there too?

You can find more poets writing on (Songs For The Sea) under the poetry category and also a collection of talented singers and musicians. In January 2017 there will be a CD music compilation of all the singers and musicians listed. 

Also at some point an ebook of poetry will be published.  Both of those items will be sold in aid of charity.  If it interests you, then make sure to bookmark the website for future visits.

Please enjoy the video – it’s a bit of chill out poetry experience! 🙂

Story Of My Life ~ ThePianoGuys

If you haven’t discovered ThePianoGuys yet, take a look at their You Tube page – they’re beautifully entertaining! 🙂

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Mr Happy Man

 

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I’ve had this video listed in my bookmarks for ages, I thought it was about time I posted it!  I’ve never met anyone so full of happiness like Johnny Barnes or have ever experienced that kind of happiness, but I absolutely admire the guy for being true to himself, and living out whatever comes naturally to him.  He’s clearly an inspiration and has a heart-warming effect on his neighbourhood… what a lovely sweet man… what dedication! ♥

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What Happiness Is To Me

Happiness_by_CogitusI completely agree with John Lennon’s statement about happiness, I felt like that too. 

I wouldn’t call myself a happy smiley person, those big smiles I used to give for family photos in childhood were just because I was a good smiler!

I’m convinced the interpretation of happiness is very much down to each individual person as to what it means to them, no-one should fall into the trap of comparing themselves with others on levels of happiness.  There are no rules or measurements in this life on how we should feel.

For me it’s not about having a smile on my face all the time or laughing a lot, but has more to do with eliminating negative thoughts that create clutter, and knowing that my mind is quiet and settled.  I remember all too well as a teenager what it was like to have a turbulent mind, to be up high one day and down low the next.

I consider myself lucky I found determination to deal with unstable thinking at a young age.  I dread to imagine what kind of person I would be now, if I hadn’t been able to analyse my thought patterns and turned my thinking in the right direction.

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Share How You Feel

One thing that came across loud and clear to me in this film about Johnny Barnes was how important it is to be able to give something of ourselves to others.  For Johnny it’s spreading his happy feeling because that’s what he’s full of.  I wonder if he wasn’t able to be free to share his inner feelings if that would make him feel unhappy?  But, maybe nothing can make that beaming man unhappy!

I’m sure keeping things we could share with others enclosed within ourselves is responsible for a lot of unhappiness in the world.  We all need freedom to be who we are.  If the only thing someone can do at this moment is share how miserable they feel, then perhaps they should do that.  Making an effort to connect with others who are in the same place, has got to be better than not telling anyone at all.  At least it’s being real.  I honestly believe being real is essential to human sanity and discovering a reasonable level of happiness.  Maybe through that sharing, a better state of mind may eventually occur.

But if you are one of those naturally happy people, don’t forget to spread it far and wide like dear Johnny Barnes, it makes the world a whole lot more smiley!

Hoping you all have a happy Easter holiday! 🐰🐣

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Tea Room Adventure

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Something different today – a sneaky peek of the city where I live.  In December I visited a vintage style tea room in Norwich (England).  I wish I could invite you all for afternoon tea, but hopefully this post will create the illusion you have done just that! 🙂

From the window display Biddy’s Tea Room looks more like a gift shop, and I’ve been walking past this gorgeous teashop for a long time not realizing it was somewhere to eat and just my kind of place.   That’s what happens when you live in a tourist city, you get used to the surroundings and you don’t see things in the same way as the visitors, you can end up missing out.  I shall pay more attention in the future.

Biddy’s Tea Room was created by Charlie Buchan in 2010.  She explains on her website I’ve always been interested in history and obsessed with antiques. I wanted Biddy’s to reflect the bits I loved in each era… the whimsicalness of the Victorians, the ingenuity of the Edwardians, the romance of the pre-Raphaelites and the work ethic of arts and crafts!  It’s a lot to ask-but I tried to cram as much of this into Biddy’s as I could – I always just hoped people ‘got it’?!

As you will probably see from my pictures, she really has created a wonderful glimpse into the history of afternoon tea and cake in beautiful English tea rooms.  It was like stepping back in time to a scene from an old movie.  I loved the genuine homely antique furniture and the variety of mismatched crockery.  It was just like my Grandmothers home – none of her plates, cups or saucers ever matched.

I kept saying to my brother, “I feel like we’re going meet some really interesting person from the past, perhaps Oscar Wilde sitting in an armchair writing some poetry!  It was a unique and delightfully surreal time travel experience!!

And of course, the tea and cake was delicious.  I’m looking forward to trying the restaurant upstairs to discover more of their main menu next time.  The staff were very friendly and relaxed too, and were happy for us to take some photos.  If you click on the gallery for these pictures they look so much better, there’s also an option under each picture to view them in full size.  The first two pictures and also the last one were taken by my brother, all the others are mine.

I didn’t use the flash on my camera because I wanted to capture the cosy feeling.  I was surprised I was able to get any good pictures without a lot of camera shake, I must have a more steady hand than I thought.  And if you’re wondering what that tall building with a string of Christmas lights around it is, it’s the city hall clock tower.

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I was amazed to find an excellent video on You Tube all about Biddy’s Tea Room (See further down post).  It shows all the bits I haven’t captured in the pictures, and also what it looks like in the summer season.

I’ve been living in this medieval city since 1990.  It was only meant to be temporary, I had some vague plan to live in London one day, but you couldn’t drag me away now, it is such a beautiful place to live.

Norwich has thirty-three medieval church buildings, two cathedrals, an art deco city hall and a striking Norman castle high on a hill looking down at the city centre.  Although the exterior of the castle was refaced in 1839 with Bath stone covering over the flint and Caen stone walling making the castle blend in with a lot of other new buildings of that era.  The original walls would have looked very different and can only be seen from the inside.  If you’re into historical buildings that’s a very good reason to pay it a visit and also take a look at it’s museum and scary dungeons – and believe me, they are very creepy!!

Also there are two large shopping malls, four cinemas, five theatres and a really vibrant outdoor market, trading virtually on the same spot for almost 900 years.  On Saturdays the city centre streets often come alive with buskers, and other street entertainers, we even have our own living statue of Charlie Chaplin Anthony Arnold not only performs in Norwich but has twirled that cane in Hollywood too on his many travels with his captivating performance of Charlie.

Each year in July we have a Lord Mayors Celebration, which is basically a huge carnival, including a beer and music festival, a selection of outdoor theatre productions, and a huge firework display launched from the roof of the castle as the grand finale of the evening celebrations.  Rockabilly band Derrière (from Brighton) performed at the festival just around the corner from Biddy’s Tea Room in 2012, and somehow, I managed to miss that show 😦 – they sound so good!  If you like the sound of their music you might like Battle Plan, one of their official videos.   Time to dance now!!

If anyone living in Norwich says they’re bored, it can only be a state of mind, there are so many things to do and places to visit in the surrounding area, you can never get bored living in this city.

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Wasting My Young Years ~ London Grammar

London Grammar is one of those new bands I accidentally discovered recently on one of my You Tube trips!  I love Hannah Reid’s haunting voice, and I’m looking forward to see what they come up with next.  Here’s a live version of this song.  If you want to hear more of their music visit their You Tube or SoundCloud page, also Wikipedia or their website. .